What the FUCK am I doing? I SAID,
What
The
Fuck
Am
I
Doing?
I feel like I should be dedicating an entire book or song or epic movie to this emotion right now. A blog does not do it justice. So please forgive me now for the voluminous amounts of vulgarity I am about to use in this blog.
Why oh why? Why oh fucking why? What on earth is going on in my heart? The pattern is obvious as obvious gets. It just don't don't stop. I want to tear it up. I want to make it stop.
I used to be so definite. Every time I give, I am let down. Every MOTHER FUCKING TIME. I'm going to buy this place and burn it down. I'm going to put it six feet underground.
It takes a lot of love. It takes a lot of LOVE, my friend to keep your heart from freezing.
Am I the one who is confused? How can that be? I know this all ready. Too many things seem coincidental. Wants do not equal action. Selfishness. This quality is alive. Honesty. This is dead. DEAD fucking dead. No one says what they mean, no one says what they want, no one say anything any more. Where did all the real people go? Just when I think I have met someone who values the same things as I, I am once again let down. I am once again fooled. I am wondering if I will ever desensitized by all the hate and anger and pain in the world. I wonder how I have not become by all the hate, anger and pain that is just in me. Maybe it isn't me. Maybe I truly don't absorb it. Maybe I should thank the good Lord for that great gift. Thank you, Lord.
God, give me the strength to get through tomorrow because today sucked. It truly did. Last night I went to sleep with visions in my head and now, Christmas is just a fantasy of sugar plums and no Santa Claus. God grant me Serenity. Serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Bless me with Courage. Courage to change the things I can. Grant me Wisdom. Wisdom to know the difference. Good nightVietnam
I'm going to buy this place, and burn it down, that's what I said...blame it upon a rush of blood to the head.
What
The
Fuck
Am
I
Doing?
I feel like I should be dedicating an entire book or song or epic movie to this emotion right now. A blog does not do it justice. So please forgive me now for the voluminous amounts of vulgarity I am about to use in this blog.
Why oh why? Why oh fucking why? What on earth is going on in my heart? The pattern is obvious as obvious gets. It just don't don't stop. I want to tear it up. I want to make it stop.
I used to be so definite. Every time I give, I am let down. Every MOTHER FUCKING TIME. I'm going to buy this place and burn it down. I'm going to put it six feet underground.
It takes a lot of love. It takes a lot of LOVE, my friend to keep your heart from freezing.
Am I the one who is confused? How can that be? I know this all ready. Too many things seem coincidental. Wants do not equal action. Selfishness. This quality is alive. Honesty. This is dead. DEAD fucking dead. No one says what they mean, no one says what they want, no one say anything any more. Where did all the real people go? Just when I think I have met someone who values the same things as I, I am once again let down. I am once again fooled. I am wondering if I will ever desensitized by all the hate and anger and pain in the world. I wonder how I have not become by all the hate, anger and pain that is just in me. Maybe it isn't me. Maybe I truly don't absorb it. Maybe I should thank the good Lord for that great gift. Thank you, Lord.
God, give me the strength to get through tomorrow because today sucked. It truly did. Last night I went to sleep with visions in my head and now, Christmas is just a fantasy of sugar plums and no Santa Claus. God grant me Serenity. Serenity to accept the things I cannot change. Bless me with Courage. Courage to change the things I can. Grant me Wisdom. Wisdom to know the difference. Good night
I'm going to buy this place, and burn it down, that's what I said...blame it upon a rush of blood to the head.
exactly.
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welcome xo
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