Your Mechanical Love Device

I write everything down except what is really in my head. The massiveness of thoughts multiplying into oblivion is compounding at the speed of light. Each emotion fracturing into another thought or story which ends up blocked by my own physical realm.

The smile you see is just to hide the pain which has been caused by every person within an arms length. No one here takes even a moment to truly give a flying fuck.

I have given. I have loved. I have spoken.

The pages and wires of which you ride speak loud and clear of what has become the leading care in your life.

LOVE, TOUCH and moments of true connection do not render any value in the lives of people anymore.

The only reason I am free to go on is because of the AMAZING LIFE that sits beside me everyday. Her eyes are the window into my soul. Her smile is the sun. Her voice is the song.

I do not see anyone who has impressed a care farther than themselves.

Dam Bridge Love

I am so emotional right now, I can't focus enough to think of words that will express just how vividly I am feeling. I never pretend how I feel. I had to pretend to feel a certain way when all I wanted to do was cry when I heard those words. Pretending has drained every sense of realness out of me. The words are ringing in my ears.

From the moment his eyes caught mine, I had a hunch. From the moment I heard his name, my mind started thinking. From the moment I heard him sing, I was captivated. From the moment I heard his words expressed through the emotion of his song, my heart was touched.

Every song I listened to gave me something more to like about him. His essence gives me goosebumps. His thoughts make me think. His smile lights up the sky. His energy is from another world.

I am BRIDGE.

I Can't Drink This Coffee Until I Put You In My Closet

I think last night, you were driving circles around me.

The night was so mysterious...the air damp. I was floating five feet above ground and it seemed completely normal.

As I watched you from behind, I could not see your face but knew you were happy. The surrounding world revolved like a giant rolling ball. The same nine or eleven houses over and over. That same blue car. That same tree and bush. There went that cat again.

I think last night, you were driving circles around me.

You jogged and jogged. Your pony tail bounced happily. Your blue shorts flapped in the wind...I kept thinking how I had never seen those shorts before. Then again, I don't ever remember you jogging outside either.

As I followed you, I made sure to stay far enough behind that you would never suspect anyone was following you. You just kept on jogging. The night became haunting. The repetitious jog and follow became too familiar, as if we were caught in a video game and I could not escape the role playing scenario.

I could of followed you for hours. I could of watched you just be happy jogging for days, never allowed to see your face...never letting you know I was in your presence.

Then I had to squint my eyes. There was sun. It blinded me and my eyes closed...

It's not this quiet.

If I pad through the dark, can I call you on the phone?

If I push your old numbers will your house ring...

Will you slide down your receiver, sprint across the wire, follow my number and slide into my hands?

'Til I wake your ghost

I can't drink this coffee until I put you in my closet.

Take it from me, you're not that tough.

I think last night, you were driving circles around me.

Pleasure To Meet You...But Better To Bleed

Never underestimate the power of one, the power of a person, or the power of person in pain. Never underestimate the power of a person inspired whether by hate or love or insanity. We as humans contain souls which are driven by emotions that are bigger than this planet...emotions which rule this universe.

Desire, passion, obsession...these unseen emotions can't be touched or captured or held in any one man's reign for any amount of time. They are powerful enough to change millions of lives in seconds. They have been known to change history, events and have been known cause a chain-link reaction such as mass destruction which have been irreversible.